a beautiful process

Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to him, and he will make your paths straight.  -Proverbs 3:5-6

Sometimes the process of making (or being remade) is more revealing than any ‘finished’ product.

This afternoon I taught my kids how to dye eggs.  At first all of the parts and pieces seemed foreign to them (my 3 year old kept trying to eat the dye tablets!), but within minutes, they had mastered the skill of blending the colors, tilting the eggs for visual effect and coloring the eggs with that funny wax crayon.

I have been guilty so often of wanting to be the master of my own life – developing a formula that gives the desired results.  If I am seeking after something that is “honorable and good” I deem myself especially crafty at going it alone.  My own disobedience isn’t revealed to me until after the fact – when I’m turning things over in my head and wondering why in the world I am not farther, faster, finished or fitter.

“…in all your ways submit to him, and he will make your paths straight.”

Truth be told, I do not set out to be disobedient – I simply get into own my self-generating rhythm of doing ‘my thing’. Sometimes it works out – but most times, the rhythm I’ve set up becomes too hard to follow, impossible to complete or disintegrates into discord.  I have learned that anytime He is not a part of every plan for my life (no matter how ‘honorable and good’ I might think it is), I am going it alone.

Throughout his Word he has told me that He wants all of my life.

His wisdom and my failings are teaching me the blessings of obedience. The process He takes me through in growing me will always be far more beautiful than anything I could ever accomplish on my own.